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Love’s an abstract we have to manoeuvre our way through. The tangles, the hurdles & of course, the sweetness leave us fresh prior to agendas ahead.

…Like, dude…Did you even get what I said? Cuz I didn’t.

Nway, back to what this entry’s title suggests, I think I’m in love…okay, so maybe ‘love’ is a little too drastic, but yeah, I’m in a current swirl of emotions, alrite. I never knew someone who I barely know (heck, I’ve never even met him) could cause me to be in such an embroiled mess I’m in now. Before this, the sight of couples sitting together doing things that annoy God BIG TIME would have me sulking and thanking fate for not involving me in such non-sense.

But life has its turns. And now it’s mine to take the turn. I’m not saying I’m now supporting God-forbidden doings between unmarried Adams & Eves - no way I am - but yeah, it strikes me once in a while too ya know - the thought of having someone by your side. No need for words, the vibes of his presence is just enough to penetrate the crux of your heart and palpitate it so hard, you forgot how it felt failing your first Additional Math test (I’m not saying I did fail Add.Math…tho I almost did ;P).

I’ve loved God, His prophets & Islam for as long as I can remember. And I wouldn’t take too huge a step in my power exasperating them…but even the Quran says humans were made weak…and I’m just the defining end of that expression - weak. I am aware it is my weakness for failing to arrest my unnecessary needs. My weakness for failing to restrain myself from falling for one of His creations. My weakness for failing to keep myself from listening to jiwang songs on my ‘My Music’ folder (tapi tak banyak la lagu jiwang in my folder pon…betol! Tak tipu!). My weakness for failing to hinder myself from picking up my guitar (Hehe. Gitar Fitri sebenarnye…saja je bagi gempak) and come up with some seriously goosebump-raising love numbers - and of course singing horribly along with em scary renditions e.g. Love Song, Only Hope, I Miss You etc. And my weakness for failing to pick myself up again after a nasty fall.

I fell hard.

And no matter how I think I’m strong enough to pick myself up again, I can’t escape the truth that I’m not able to.

Brandon, you’re in sooooo much trouble. Why do you have to be so cute and talented??!!

PS: You didn’t think I was actually blabbing about some real person I’m having a crush on did you? Dude…Brandon’s the one and only maaann…Oh! The lead from 311’s HOT too! And that Klim guy from the Australian aquatics team! Hihiks!

PSS/PPS/WTV!: Who thinks I should start a love novel, hands up!!! ;P

GAWD, this anti-climax thing is fun! Meow!